All the Trees of the Field Will Clap Their Hands

Surrender All

2007-09-02T17:55:00.000-07:00

Would you be willing to give a year to Jesus?

Happen Now

2007-08-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

Some negatives of living in a small detached neighbourhood in Nepean Ontario:

milk in a bag
beef that's not from Alberta
walking to the mailbox
humidity
short thunder storms
fourteen-percent tax
half my channels are french
dark by nine
all good shopps are at least twenty minutes away
Boston Pizza is rare
no Julios Barrios at all
water doesn't taste very good

That's all for now.

Arboreal:

2007-08-08T14:46:00.000-07:00

(adjective) Relating to or resembling a tree.

I am arboreal.

Absentminded Melody

2007-08-07T13:39:00.003-07:00

"I honestly believe with every inch of my heart... that me and you are meant for amazing things."
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I've lived the past five years in a haze... perhaps a Purple Haze, Jimi seems to sum it up perfectly. I wandered around in a fog, met incredible people who quite possibly I gave too much credit to, but still, I am Me because of who they were. Through the seasons I learned more about myself, what amazed me and filled my mind with excitement and anticipation. Weekend shows at tiny hall venues, crazy kids with black hair and metal studs on their homemade jackets. Their passion for the music created a passion inside of me that to this day I have troubles figuring out. Was it the fact that they didn't care, about anything or anyone, or that they just knew how to get the most out of the life they'd been given. Winter walks down an artists avenue. Beggars on the corner, some true, some not. Steam from my hot chocolate and seeing the breath of everyone walking by, this avenue created life, it inspired and pushed for something more. The obvious was hidden... life is about adventure, and I'm starting to see that. Back alleys filled our grey skies, the perfect days in our eyes. We knew there was something more, we felt it from the moment we met. To this day we know there is something else out there, something greater meant for our lives... we've come so far yet we can't believe that this is it. There's no way. Watching the river, the city continue to grow and live, sitting and wondering what this was all about, why, should this be it? No one ever met face to face with their dreams, sitting and wishing. The wind is something incredible, it does something deep inside your ear as it blows by. It's like a whisper telling you where it's been is not where it's going. Maybe we should listen more closely as the wind blows. Blank pages are filled with stories and the breeze fills you with anticipation to read on. For me, I've moved on to new pages, leaving all the rest to burn behind me and in me, but I've learned something. Life is about change, life is about dreams and finding out who you are. You will never know who you are, why things happen, why you meet certain people until your last breath, cuz at that point you've made it as far as you can, and you can look back at the person you've created yourself to be. My heart belongs to the idea of uncertainty and time and that no matter how much you long to know, you never will until you create it. You create your future just as much as you create your past. The here and now is all there is. The tomorrows and yesterdays are all just memories. I can't wait until the day I stand face to face with my Jesus and he tells me I've lived my life to the fullest and that I did an ok job. Until then, I'll just keep learning, wishing and following the wind.

Isaiah 58:6-9

2007-07-31T17:52:00.000-07:00

"This is the kind of fast day I'm after:
to break the chains of injustice,
get rid of exploitation in the workplace,
free the oppressed,
cancel debts.
What I'm interested in seeing you do is:
sharing your food with the hungry,
inviting the homeless poor into your homes,
putting clothes on the shivering ill-clad,
being available to your own families.
Do this and the lights will turn on,
and your lives will turn around at once.
Your righteousness will pave your way.
The God of glory will secure your passage.
Then when you pray, God will answer.
You'll call out for help and I'll say, 'Here I am.' "

"Si Tu Me Olvidas" (If You Forget Me)

2007-07-30T20:07:00.000-07:00

Tú sabes cómo es esto:

si miro

la luna de cristal, la rama roja

del lento otoño en mi ventana,
si toco

junto al fuego

la impalpable ceniza

o el arrugado cuerpo de la leña,

todo me lleva a ti,

como si todo lo que existe:

aromas, luz, metales,

fueran pequeños barcos que navegan

hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.

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Ahora bien,

si poco a poco dejas de quererme

dejaré de quererte poco a poco.

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Si de pronto

me olvidas

no me busques,

que ya te habré olvidado.

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Si consideras largo y loco

el viento de banderas

que pasa por mi vida

y te decidesa dejarme a la orilla

del corazón en que tengo raíces,

piensaque en esa día,

a esa hora

levantaré los brazos

y saldrán mis raíces

a buscar otra tierra.

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Perosi cada día,

cada hora,

sientes que a mí estás destinada

con dulzura implacable,

si cada día sube

una flor a tus labios a buscarme,

ay amor mío,

ay mía,

en mí todo ese fuego se repite,

en mí nada se apaga ni se olvida,

mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,

y mientras vivas estará en tus brazos

sin salir de los míos.

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by Pablo Neruda

Always For You

2007-07-29T15:10:00.000-07:00

It is true that absence makes the heart grow fonder.
And while your heart grows fonder, the absence makes the mind grow sadder.

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I miss things I never thought I would... and the absence is killing me.

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Edmonton is such a pretty city. Everything about it is brilliant and peaceful and exciting.

The skyline.

The back alleys.

The river valley.

The sounds.

The people.

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Don't get me wrong...

Everyone I've met so far here, have been wonderful.

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But they aren't Edmontonian.

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It's probably way too early to even be thinking like this.

I mean, I just got here.

But really.

This city is so old and seems very... still, almost... too traditional.

Of course there is so much history here and great things happened on this land,

but where is the colour?

This city is so monochromatic.

It's all concrete and stone.

All freeways and cramped streets.

The most beautiful thing I've seen since I've been here...

the sky at dusk after the rain.

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New life is incredible, isn't it?

A brand new flower blooming, or a baby being born.

It's as immaculate as the sky at dusk, after the rain...

All Shook Up...

2007-07-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

I'm back!!
It's been a long month or so but I'm online once again...
with a totally different outlook on life.

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This past month has been one of, if not the, most challenging months of my life.

To start off I've moved to Ottawa... a city that well... isn't quite Edmonton.

As if that wasn't hard enough, life ewa painful disaster into the mix and blew up the truck that was carrying all my belongings from point A to supposedly point B.

So here I am, in a new city, with nothing.

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However! The Lord provides right?

I've begun replacing some things that are able to be replaced and now that I'm online I am able to retrieve some photos I luckily put online, that I lost in the fire.

The Salvation Army has taken really good care of us and I appreciate it immensely.

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My new bed is soft, though missing my favourite companion... Rev. Bear. R.I.P.

And my walls are blue, but missing Bob Dylan and my art work.

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I've made a few new friends though, which is awesome cuz they are all so rad!

Ryan and his wifey and cute little girl.... Kerrie and I spent the day with them touring around, getting really bad sunburn and visiting the Parliament and Art Gallery.

Sid, Allison, Jacob, Liam and Aaron... love em to death!!!

And i do suppose that is all for now... however everyone I've met so far have been so nice and very welcoming.

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I feel like a Rolling Stone.

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I find things ironic. Such as the fact that I became obsessed with Bob Dylan and 'Like A Rolling Stone' right around the time of my move. The song talks about a girl who goes from living a high class life, having everything she ever needed or wanted, to being one with the street and living her life begging. In a way I've come to relate to this girl. I went from having it all to being stripped down to nothing, over night. Now I know I'm not on the street and I still have a roof over my head, but I do feel like I can relate better now to people who have lost everything. All my possessions are things the world gave me... and all I really need is the gifts God has given me. It's been a huge eye opener, and I do appreciate it.

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Humidity is sticky.

The airport is basically my neighbour, so air traffic is more common then street traffic.

Is a Harrow a type of bird or a piece of farming equipment?

What's your Starbucks Drink?

I'm Bound to Pack It Up

2007-06-22T16:09:00.000-07:00

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be on your own
With no direction home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone?
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5 days till I start my new life.

Michael's A Stud. The Flamingos Loved Him.

2007-06-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

This picture says it all.

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We were at West Ed and we stopped to say hello to the flamingos. When they saw his stunning pink suit, they all came out of the water and started staring him down, swinging their heads back and forth trying to get a good look. Then they danced a little and then....

they fluffed their wings and oh how it was amazing!!

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The flamingos loved him.

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I haven't laughed so hard in years.

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I slept in until noon today!

I never sleep in that long!

The stressful times must be catching up to me.

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Michael has inspired me to drink more tea.

And in a way he tought me how to read my emotions through drinking tea, which is pretty sweet actually.

What a clever man.

One Night To Speed Up Truth

2007-06-10T19:29:00.000-07:00

"I just want to be a travelling artist-vagabond

bound on love and ideals,

floating along with merely lovers and sound."

Why should we live our lives like we're supposed to?

Why not live life like we want to...

Memory's Here To Stay....

2007-06-09T20:58:00.000-07:00

Last night was really exciting. Lyss, Eric, Jessie and I went to the park with some acoustics and a camera and just lived the life we figure is rockin. I love them.

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We went to McDonalds - my second time this week!! - wait... third!

And it's such an addiction!

Cheese burgers - oh- man.

I mean it just tastes so good. But then like any other addiction, it makes you feel rotten.

But then the next day, or even the next time you're just hungry, you want it again!

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I got to see Graham again today :)

He's.... the best.

And I must say... looks spectacular in Aviators ;)

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Shout out to Alyssa hOtt.

Love!

haha

Rozalia Bizzare

2007-06-06T16:22:00.000-07:00

I was so excited for tonight.
Unfortunately, God had other things in mind... again.

Not that I'm blaming God for the natural disaster.

But come on... give me a break just once... PLEASE!

Really, I was so excited.

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Last night Lyss picked me up from work and we met up with Eric and Jessie for a bit.

Then Jessie left us (tear) and Eric joined us for a trip down memory lane.
It was lots of fun... and made me tear at times.
Man. I'm gonna miss em good.

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Doesn't it always seem you meet some of the greatest people when you don't have much time to spend with them?

For example... this guy I met a few years back at our bonfire... coolest kid ever! Still think about him to this day.... but I haven't seen him since.

Or going to a weekend event and meeting someone totally awesome, good looking, funny, whatever... and after those few days you split and never see them again.

And now that I'm moving... I'm meeting all these awesome people,

but I'm only here for like.... 3 more weeks and then I'm gone!!

It's sad.

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If any of you have ideas of what I could do once I get to Ottawa, please let me know.

I'm stumped.

I Don't Care What They Think About Me

2007-06-04T11:41:00.000-07:00

... Jesus I long to see your face...

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I will never stop praisin' you... for all the things you've done for me... and I'll be yours forever... Jesus you're everything to me...

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Whoaaa life is nuts!!

It's so very confusing when your biggest plans get ruined and you've got no plan b. For example... NOT getting in to the only college you applied for...

When I got my letter on Friday all my plans for my new life (life after moving to Ottawa) suddenly wouldn't work out... and now what? I really have no clue!

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But I'm so excited and on a high.... the year is mine! Who knows what will happen... maybe college isn't where I'm supposed to be. Maybe running around screaming Jesus love songs on the downtown streets is more important... or feeding crazy kids who long to know the real meaning of life and giving them something to look forward to in their futures... or painting and taking photos... who knows!!! Not knowing what is going to happen is the scariest, most exciting and adrenaline rushing feeling ever!!

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...You are the way, the truth and the light... I live by faith and NOT by sight...

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The camp this weekend was so awesome! All the dead dandelions were blowing and covering everything in the camp... the whole ground looked like it was covered in snow and the forest was so mystical! I've never seen so much fluff falling from the sky... like God was having a pillow fight with his angels haha. And the lake was extra pretty for some reason... it was high and peaceful. Camp truly is one of my favourite places ever. I always feel alive there...

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Laura Brown. Fil. What a crazy child! Her passion for the Army has always inspired me. We were talking this weekend about how cool it would be to go into uniform..... original style! With the bonnet and the old tunics... so awesome! I wouldn't be surprised if she actually found one and wore it to every event possible... including regular classes haha.

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Being an Army kid gets confusing... well, for me anyway. Love or hate? Depending on the moment.... it could be either. Right now... I'm so inlove. The Salvation Army is in my blood... it's my culture and I'm proud. There are times when I want to get as far away as possible, but we all know you can't escape who you are. I'm an Officer's Kid. An O.K. And I wouldn't give it up for anything.

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My challenge for you for today: think about where you are in your life, if you love where you're going, or if there's something you can change so that in 5, 10, 15 years, you'll still love where you're going, and where you've been.

Isn't She Wonderful?

2007-05-31T19:12:00.000-07:00

My holiday is over.

Miss you.

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Death By Chocolate

2007-05-29T22:55:00.000-07:00

Wa-cha-chai-yaaa!

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Flamingo and I had another wonderful day... today on Whyte. We had "coffee" at Starbucks, went to Death By Chocolate and Opas, got pierced and bought cool tees. And of course, wicked Graham met up too. I had more fun with these two in the last few days then I have in a long time.... other than the bonfire the other night...

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I'm so proud of Flamingo getting her belly button pierced! She debated over it for awhile but she decided to be adventurous and brave! Only one buddy could go in with her while she got it done, so me being afraid of needles, and Graham being the best support system, he went in while I sat and read the newspaper. A bit later Graham came out and told me she couldn't do it, that she chickened out... and I totally believed him, cuz I knew she was unsure. But then she came out and lifted her shirt to a very lovely pink jewel. :D

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In the picture shown... Graham and I are excited to find the Dandy Warhols add in the newspaper. Then we were sad because we couldn't go. Later that night, before we went to McDonald's (where he was sweet enough to buy us ice cream), his friend called and offered him a free ticket to... the Dandy Warhols! Like what the heck buddy... take me! haha pretty funny actually.

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Flamingo leaves me tomorrow. Most likely, I won't see her for months, which breaketh my hearteth. Why must she leaveth? Come backeth I say! ... k enough with the old English haha STAY!

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All I've eaten in the past few days... pop, twizzlers, chocolate, desserts, and fries. Oh, and pizza last night. Jeez man. Call me P.I.G... pretty indulging gal? haha ahem....

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I'm totally going to visit you oh anon commenter! Ontario will be ours! muahaha haha yea... bed time.

Altruism

2007-05-28T22:13:00.000-07:00

Tonight was awesome.

Normally work sucks... but tonight I had rad company. Flem first off. I got to take her pictures :)

And her crazy friend Graham hung out all night while I took bad pictures of a Grad who wouldn't smile. We chatted and he's a pretty wicked male. Unlike a lot I've met, in his thinking and easy going-ness.

Then we went to Boston Pizza and Graham bought us all pizza. Free food yeyea!!

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Tomorrow we are hitting Whyte to take pictures and chill. Pretty stoked about that.

I love that Flem is here and all mine.

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Last night I had to fall asleep quick because I was going to puke... hott, I know. But here's why: She informed me that I have 3 weeks and 5 (now 4) days left until the move. I didn't realize it's that soon. And this upset me HUGE. Also, Flamingo is someone who gets me through everything and as soon as she got here... I let stress out, because I knew I could. So I think the release of all that stress added to my almost sickness.

But this is a good thing. The more I let out, the less I have inside right? But letting it out is kind of like.... throwing up.... so releasing the stress.... made me sick?

I know... that's weird.

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Life As We Know It.

We could create our own complete series.

And it'd be pretty great I'd say.

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Night to all who even read this... especially you "anonymous" commenter ;)

She Locked Herself In The Bathroom

2007-05-26T23:32:00.000-07:00

Tonight I had an adventure.
Started off by going to Goldbar park for a bonfire with a few friends and ended being hit on by a drunk man on the bus.
Highlight of the night:
Supertramp love song on a harmonica :)

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Flamingo aka Carly is finally here!! It's about time too. I've been waiting almost 10 months. She's my favourite. You're all jealous.

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We are sitting on my bed enjoying Leeland and talking about the good ol days.... our rivalries at camp and our good memories.

I think we agree that it'd be great to do it all over again... but would we change things? That's a tough question.

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She's my flower.

God Of All Creation

2007-05-22T18:44:00.000-07:00

I'm totally abandoned to You
I'm lost inside the rivers of Your love
I'm swept into the power of
Your presence
Drawn toward the whisper of Your voice

I come to You in quiet adoration
And fall before Your feet
You are my King
I'm living for the beauty of Your Presence
To behold the glory of Your face

Holy, Worthy, is the Lord
Heaven declares
Your Rightousness
Oh God of All Creation
I worship You

Oh when You said 'seek Your face'
My heart said 'Your face I will seek'

Pink Bullets

2007-05-20T15:04:00.000-07:00

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That is Michael's ear.

I love how this photo turned out.

I didn't need to do any editing, it just worked perfectly.

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This weekend was awesome.

I went to Pine lake Camp for Dawn and Dean's wedding and it was so nice!

I was the official photographer :)

It was a simple wedding full of tight friends and famil, wii and bochi ball.

D and D make an incredibly beautiful couple and I got some super photos.

Ray and I had a great road trip too.

He is the coolest cat ever.

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I got my first Slurpee of the season!

I know, long time coming.

I've wanted one for months.

But the weather is just right.

And packing is making me thirsty!

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The Shins rock.

Let Everything That Has Breathe...

2007-05-15T10:45:00.000-07:00

The boxes came today for moving. It was the craziest feeling... seems like we just finished unpacking from our last move five years ago. Seems like I spent my whole life here though... living in Ontario seems like a dream to me now. I don't even remember a lot about it... and I was 14 when I moved here. I guess I've just experienced "life" here, you know?

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It's so nice out today!!

Perfect for being outside :)

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When the night seems so long (throw your hands to the sky)

You can sing a new song (wipe the tears from your eyes)

When you're weak, He is strong
He can heal your wounded soul
And calm the storm inside

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This weekend I'm heading to Pine Lake Camp to take pictures of my friends wedding. I'm really excited... not only for the fact that they are getting married, but also to be at the camp, taking pictures, and finally seeing my good friend Michael Harbin... it's been almost a year. Way too long.

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For my 3D Design class we need to make a 3D model/ pop-up book of any piece of architecture. So.. being a huge Frank Lloyd Wright fan... I decided to try his "Fallingwater" house in the forest (it's so pretty... look it up on Google!). I think I may have chosen something completely out of my abilities in 3D design haha but you never know until you try right?

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I want college to end! This year I mean....

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Crazy Son!

2007-05-13T16:04:00.000-07:00

I went to Calgary this weekend for a few reasons. Now, normally... actually, even still... I hate Calgary. The city is horribly ugly (sorry for all you who love it there) and there doesn't seem to be much more than houses and highways... notice this? It's... odd. Anyway... I saw the OC DYB and they blew me away! Being an Army kid and growing up around Brass bands, I could really appreciate the hard work and dedication those guys had. To be honest.... I was completely jealous! haha I used to play the horn... many years ago, but for some reason hated it at the time. I wish I hadn't given it up... I'd love to be able to play. Bass guitar just isn't the same...
But I'm super glad I went to Calgary, even though there were a few friends I didn't get to see. I met some really neat people... including an immaculate singer who I went to Sunday School with when I was young haha (yea... I love livin in a small world) so that was awesome :) I hope I run into some of them when I move to Ontario...

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I also got to see Uncle Mark... one of my most cherished teachers in the entire world. While he was the DYS in the Alberta division, he really became family to me... he taught me a lot and encouraged me as a person of God, to continue in what I was doing well, and challenge me on things that I needed to be challenged on. After 3 years, I finally got to see him again... and it was awesome!!

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I'm moving to Ottawa in 6 weeks. I'm really excited now. Moving on with my life... it seems this is the best time... God couldn't have planned it any better for me. Spiritually I'm at a high, and so eager to chase the world with my good news! One year of college done, with a certificate in Design.... excited to go on to take Photography at Algonquin and take pictures of God's beauty. I've been stuck in a boring, overly busy groove for the past 6 months and I need a break from the norm! Getting away will give me air to breathe! No more sleepless nights or bad dreams. And... some good friends of mine are also moving to Ontario... so having that support will rock too.

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Who wants to dance around and go crazy?

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Who is craving Slurpees and Ice Cream cones?!

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Who can't get over and stop noticing how artistic God is?

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I feel as though I may start to annoy some with my constant bragging about Jesus... but I can't help it.... he's just way too good to me. And truely my best friend!

I can introduce you to him if you'd like... I'm certain you'll like him too :)

Mind's Eye

2007-05-07T18:42:00.000-07:00

I've come to realize the only thing I'm really passionate about it Photography (and Jesus) and nothing can turn me off about it (except Sears). One day I want to open my own studio where there won't be rules and stupid guidelines... since when did art require rules?

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I'm also going to start freelancing and shooting for weddings and bands and such. I've done one wedding, I have another coming up May long, and my friends band wants me to take their photos soon. That kind of stuff rocks! It's so much fun!

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Today I went to the Muttart Conservatory with Fred and we had fun. There's some pretty plants there... though I think we went at the wrong time of year. I saw a lizard, but it was fake. Then I saw a spider... NOT in one of the triangles... and it was real!!

I itched for a long time.

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Let me take your picture!

I Got My Camera <3

2007-04-21T13:04:00.000-07:00

So after all my hard saving, I finally got my Nikon D80.

And it's a beaut.

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New Bright Eyes Album

is amazing

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Alyssa bought me the Shins on vinyl!!

Chute Too Narrow.

Their best album so far.

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If you haven't yet,

you need to see Rushmore.

It's a highly enjoyable indie-esc film that I found in my brothers massive DVD collection.

I loved it!

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Long live the King!

Three People... Rock On....

2007-04-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

Only 3 people read my blog. How swell haha

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I'm in love with Jon Heder.

I want to have his babies.

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I'm really looking forward to this summer.

The last few summers I've worked at camp and haven't really had time to relax emotionally or physically [even, especially, on weekends]. But this summer I've decided not to work at all, so I can play, and relax before school starts up again in the fall. Good idea?

I thought so.

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I was crazy for you.

That's for sure.

?

2007-04-07T20:24:00.000-07:00

So I'm just curious at how many people actually read my blog. So.... if you read this, leave me a comment.... anon or known.... doesn't matter. I just want to see if I am more writing to myself haha

.Oh No!. Oh My!.

2007-03-31T20:00:00.000-07:00

Ugh I am so stressed out!

Ugh I am so stressed out!

I'll Fight

2007-03-30T22:37:00.000-07:00

There are millions of lost souls on the streets of this world... and we, The Salvation Army, LIVE to offer these people hope. Hope to the starving, hope to the loveless, hope to the hopeless, the left-behinds, and the kicked-out. Hope for the wheeping, hope for the begging, hope to the drugged-up, exploited, and trafficked. Hope to the addicted, hope to the uneducated, hope to the motherless and the fatherless. Hope to the mothers and fathers whos children were taken, murdered, starved, eaten by disease, or successful suicidals. Hope for the people we walk by and judge... every... single...day. Hope for the people Jesus sees as precious and beautiful, timeless and priceless.

You Can Be Anything That You Want To Be...

2007-03-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

Sisters are forever.

Shine A Light

2007-03-21T20:00:00.000-07:00

[Waiting for something that'll never arrive]

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Tomorrow I am going to see 300.

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I'm drinking out of my turquoise bottle.

Water tastes better that way.

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Mini Moog.

Anyone know what that is?

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I bought a cheap movie the other day and it turned out alright.

Sunset Strip.

I like it when random buys turn out good.

Makes me feel like I haven't thrown my money away like a consumer whore.

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I've decided that with my GIANT tax return [that I'm praying God will bless me with] that I will buy a nice new Nikon SLR Digi Cam. It will be so lovely. I look forward to taking pictures of you....

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Yesterday at lunch I bought this weird Indian Trail Mix from the cafeteria. Only certain parts taste OK..... the rest is too odd.

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Just a note: that picture is off Google. I cannot take credit for its skill.

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[So Sally can wait..... don't look back in anger]

I'm Finding My Way Back To Sanity.... Again

2007-03-20T19:08:00.000-07:00

[I love you more, than you'll ever know....]

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God.... has got to be one of the most annoying friends I have ever had!

First he throws a huge challenge at me. I have to call on him for help because I can't figure it out on my own. Then, he helps me through and I get things under control and I'm ready for the future. So I sing my praises and thank him for his unfailing love. But then straight out of left field he throws in a complete warpation that just has no logic whatsoever! So, of course, I have to call on him again, so I know what to do and for strangth to continue on. However, all of this, just increases my faith and makes me appreciate and love him even more.

So even though God drives me crazy, I would never give up our friendship for anything, because I know he is the only one that can help me survive this thing called life.

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I've been thinking about taking something totally random and not art related next year. Why not? Maybe there is something else out there that I haven't thought of yet...... that I'd be perfect for.

I was thinking something like..... an astronaut.

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Flem! I miss you.

I am going to visit you soon.

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Ugh! It snowed snowballs tonight!

I can't wait for spring : ) and summer.

So I can get that feeling again.... you know, the one I love to write about.

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Speaking of writing, I've had the urge to work on my movie again lately. I still have a strong passion for it because I feel it explains me well. Maybe one day I'll make it.... super indie style with my little video camera and some good looking actors : )

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My best friend is getting married!
I get to be in her wedding and I am so happy for her!

Jenn Randell is the reason I am who I am.
She understands me and she set an example for me that I still follow.
I just adore her.

Factory Girl

2007-03-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

Alex and I went to see Factory Girl tonight and honestly, it is probably one of the best films I have ever seen! It was so good! Not to mention Andy Warhol is one of the most intriguing people of all time. Getting to know him gives me a greater appreciation for his art, which is truly art.

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Wouldn't it be great to live like Edie Sedgwick? Completely carefree and full of life? At the beginning of the film, that's how I felt, but near the end I was reminded what comes of people who are "carefree" and "full of life". The truth is, they just haven't found something to care about, or what they really want to fill their life with.

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Sienna Miller is a beautiful character and person really. As is Hayden Christensen who plays a musician that is incredibly nice looking naked... mhmm.

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Anyway, I won't give it all away.... but go see it. It is worth your $7 at the Princess Theater.

Let's Move To Levittown and Be Materialistic Conformists

2007-03-14T13:59:00.000-07:00

Life is wonderful isn't it?

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I love my friends. All of them.

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Don't you love when you turn on an old song and old memories come flooding back? Even if you forget that song reminds you of a special time, as soon as it comes on the best of times can come alive again.

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This is a special shout out to ma home gurls from design class: Motha Dog, Le to the Anne, V the Vanestic Vanessie, Kayley ma cogitating Supastar, and Erin ma Rockin Alley Cat! Luv ya girlies!

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I am such a dork.

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That is all for now folks.
Be sure to check out Bright Eyes new video and website and always remember to SHOUT OUT LOUD when you are on the street being chased by Motha Dog [she knows how to kick box.. watch out!!]

Rock 'n Roll Jesus

2007-03-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

I love my friends.
And today.... especially Sunshine.
He just lights up my life.
:)

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New favourite juice: Blue and Strawberry powder MIXED. So yummy... with ice cubes :)

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I think I met Jesus tonight. He came into the Studio and he was beautiful! Now, two things first. One, I've always had a "thing" for East Indians [if you know what I mean ;)] and two, is it odd that I was attracted to Jesus?

He had long hair and a long beard. And he was just BEAUTIFUL!

And have you ever thought about something, spaced out and then come out of it thinking whatever you were thinking was actually real? Well, I was thinking about him being Jesus, and then I actually thought he was and I got the oddest feeling.

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How would you feel if you met Jesus?

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When I lived in Kitchener, ON I was madely in love with a boy called Adam. Almost everyone knows this... but it's true. In my childish ways, I was fascinated. Anyway, I saw pictures of his wedding last night....... I think my heart broke and I lost a piece.......

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Don't you love those silly crushes that last years!? They are so funny. Because it almost just becomes the norm and as you get older you just always remember that boy as "the boy" that you always wanted to marry some day. So it kind of sucks when they go and get married to someone else hahaha. Oh Adam. Whoa is me....

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If you could travel through time [which I might add, Alex and I have decided to devote the rest of our lives to figure out how] what concert would you see?

The Beatles, Elvis Presley, Nirvana, The Doors..... those were a few we discussed.

If Jesus were in a rock band..... what band would be have been a member of?

Leave me your answers!

Dancing With God

2007-03-09T10:00:00.000-07:00

Here is a little thought that my Unk (uncle) sent me for my birthday. He got it from a frienhd of his, and I think it's really cool!!
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When I meditated on the word Guidance, I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word Guidance. When I saw "G: I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i". "God, "u" and "i" dance." God, you, and I dance. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life,Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
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Let's all dance with God!! Throw ono your favourite tunes and see how God changes your life :D

You're Everything, You're Perfect

2007-03-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

Just to be with you, I'd do anything There's no price I would not pay Just to be with you, I'd give anything I would give my life away

"Love Song" - Third Day
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I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
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It's by Your grace and love I am saved
It's by Your grace and love You've forgiven me
And by that love and grace I'm amazed
It's by Your grace and love I am free
I am free, I am free, I am free
"Grace and Love" - Kutless
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When I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...
"On Fire" - Switchfoot
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Jesus, You are the one that makes me smile
Over and over again
"The One" - Everyday Sunday
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Shaking like a leaf
Afraid to life my eyes
Afraid of all your glory
Ashamed of all my pride
Then you call me in
To your holy place
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I fall down
Down on my face
And I beckon you for mercy
And I beckon you to forgive everything that I've ever done
And I tremble and I tremble
"I Tremble" - Audio Adrenaline
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My Jesus, I love Thee, I know Thou art mine;
For Thee all the follies of sin I resign.
My gracious Redeemer, my Savior art Thou;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
.

I love Thee because Thou has first loved me,
And purchased my pardon on Calvary’s tree.
I love Thee for wearing the thorns on Thy brow;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
.

I’ll love Thee in life, I will love Thee in death,
And praise Thee as long as Thou lendest me breath;
And say when the death dew lies cold on my brow,
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
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In mansions of glory and endless delight,
I’ll ever adore Thee in heaven so bright;
I’ll sing with the glittering crown on my brow;
If ever I loved Thee, my Jesus, ’tis now.
"My Jesus, I Love Thee"
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Turn your gaze
To Heaven and raise
A joyous noise
Oh, the sound of salvation come
The sound of rescued ones
And all this for a king
Angles join to sing
"All for Christ the King!"
.
How infininte and sweet
This love so rescuing
Oh how infinitely sweet
This great love that has redeemed
As one, we sing...
.
"Hallelujah!
Hallelujah!
He is Holy!
He is Holy!"
"Oh Praise Him!" - David Crowder Band

And You Are No One's But Mine....

2007-03-04T20:31:00.000-07:00

[You've got a glow...]

My birthday was on Friday. I'm 19 now. Mature? Naah. No one is mature, even at 90.

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You should all check out Mikado's if you've never been there and enjoy Japanese food. I had my birthday dinner there with some friends and we got a private room, AND we got to sit on the floor. It was lovely. I have awesome friends.

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[And we wait, above a road.

And we're turning to go home.

And the silence from the side of the car

Tells me everything and how we are.

Nomore trying to make this alright

No more trying tonight.

And you know its not so easy when you're all alone,

And i wonder if I'm alone, in your head.

I know something is wrong I just don't know what to do

You say its only me and that I'm so perfect for you

I don't want to try no more

I don't want to make this right

I just want you to be true with me... one time.

And I know its not so easy when you're all alone

And I wonder if I'm alone in your head

Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last

I'll give this one more try

I'll give it all my best

And I'll ask "what could you be doing that is so much fun without me by your side, without me by your side"

And I will take a step back and I'll let you ahead

And I will take a step away and see if you come back

Because there is no more trying to make this alright

There's no more trying, there's now more trying tonight

We'll never be the same!

We will never be the same!

We will never be the same... until your donel

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Sorry, that was a random outburst.

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I like birds. And look at all the pretty trees.

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I'm finally all settled nicely into my new room. It's cozy and retro. Ludgate loves it. Come over and meet Elvis.

Luv Addict

2007-02-27T18:32:00.000-07:00

familyforce5.com

Hold up, wait a minute, put a little LOVE in it!

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Dimension

2007-02-26T10:12:00.000-07:00

I took this picture the other day because I thought it was really funny that the mailman was sitting on his mailbox waiting for his mail. It was right outside my house, so I stole a picture through the window. Excellent, no?

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Last night was the Wolfmother show and it was really good. Though I will admit it was a little long.... but probably just because doors weren't until 8 and the opener didn't even come on until 9:40 or something silly like that. But nonetheless, Wolfmother was fantastic. The opener [I can't remember their name] sucked. Too much pelvic thrust!!!! and make-up on the front man. They got "boo"ed and it was funny. Ah! And there was this really old creepy satanic man who tried to eat Alyssa!!! Alex saved us all, but it was still horribly terrifying.

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McDonald's!! Ugh! DIE!

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Jasmine tea is a great feeling.

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My new bedroom is 95% complete and I'm half moved in. It's so small. But it's my own space, so I'll take it! Beats sleeping behind a couch on the floor haha

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This week is my reading week. Everyone else in the world had it last week, so I have a feeling I'll be rather bored. Other than going to work, I don't know what to do....

....ouch. I don't know why but my head feels like it is going to implode or explode or diplode or something! It hurts so bad : ( Probably from the air last night, the noise, and the INTOXICATION from the carpets downstairs.

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My birthday is in 5 days do doooo da doo dooo. 19 years old. : )

And.... I get to spend it alooone. Haha, yea, everyone is busy on my actual birthday. Oh well. Maybe I'll whip out some ice cream and a sweet movie and chill with my beloved cat: Ludgate.

Sweet.

In Memory Of

2007-02-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

A beautiful friend of mine passed away.
This whole concept is incredibly confusing.
How am I supposed to feel?
Her life was just beginning. And she was offering a life to her nephew that was better than anyone could give him.
What was God thinking?
Just like that, gone.
Yet, she will live on forever in our hearts, and through the photographs she took. She was beautiful.

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I had a few thoughts on the way to school today. These are them. I don't feel like expanding on them right now.

Today is a beautiful day. Only a few more days till my birthday and only a few more till I'm set free, living on my own.

Waiting for the bus is like waiting for the second coming. You know it is, but its a mystery as to when.

Old lady crossing. She must feel like a turtle.

Tattered Rose.

Lady on bus. Positive thinking. Changing reality.

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OK, the last one I will expand on.

This lady on the bus this morning was trying to convince her buddy that by believing in something it can come true. That by having a positive attitude, anything can be changed.

It's not true.

By believing that his artery will heal itself, will not make him healthy.

By believing that world hunger will go away, will not make food fall from the sky.

By believing that the homeless will find a life, will not make them millionaires.

By believing that some one's alive, will not bring them to life.

And then you ask, but what is faith?

And I answer you this....

By believing that God has a plan, will make all of the above... believable.

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Life is fragile. Make the most of it and smile as much as you can.

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In Memory of

Jackie

Rich & Chewy: Chocolate Chip

2007-02-22T19:34:00.000-07:00

Turns out I'm allergic to granola bars.
Odd no?
I lived off of them and juice boxes all of grade 12.

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I wrote my Design History midterm today!! I studied for a grand total of...... an hour and a half [give or take an hour or so] and I feel I did fairly well.

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School is for cool kids.

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I'm getting light-headed [or high] off the new carpet fumes lingering among the massive amounts of.... mess.

+INTOXICATION+

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My friend Nick is applying for the Design Foundations program next year! I'm so excited hehe

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Vanessa and I had McDonald's today. Ew. But so yum! We got out of class super early and the cafe was closed due to unlawful Reading Weeks! Yes! Why did the rest of the world get it a week earlier? Hmmm?! Anyway... we were wondering why people sink so low and work there. I mean, some people it's totally OK... you know, high school students and whatnot. But middle aged people or people old enough to be in COLLAGE!! Yes. That is how we feel. Unacceptable.

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The road to happiness is calling.

Ballad For The Broken Sound

2007-02-20T18:12:00.000-07:00

Hugs
I saw a short film on the net today about this guy who stood around with a sign that read "Free Hugs". At first no one hugged him or even really looked at him. But it eventually caught on and everyone hugged him. Then, the police banned "free hugs" and they petitioned. After 10,000 names, they were aloud back on the street.
Shouldn't we all offer free hugs to everyone? A hug from someone close to you makes you feel really good about yourself and loved. But I believe a hug from a stranger is intensely more endearing. A hug from a stranger is blind, yet full of meaning and acceptance.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

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Sunset at Millgate

One day I was with my lovely friend Alyssa waiting for the bus at Millgate. And as we sat there, listening to Nirvana I believe it was, the sun started to set. The colours were beautiful orange and yellow and it was a warm feeling. To this day, I have never felt so good. It honestly was the best moment of my life. And it was so awesome because I was with someone who excepted me for all I was. Didn't matter that we differed in certain ways, didn't matter that we argued sometimes or got on each others nerves..... we were best friends and we understood each other.

This evening I was taking the bus home from her house in the hood, and I was standing at Millgate pondering life and dreading the next few months... when suddenly, I felt an odd warmth on my cheek and I looked up... to see a beautiful orange and yellow sky.

The sun was setting. And I knew that everything would work out OK. This is my home. Alyssa is my best friend. And we totally rock this life. : )

Thanks Lyss.

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History Among The Trees

It's crazy how short of time I've been here, but how long it feels. I feel like I became a real person here in Edmonton and have become the person I am because of everything I see every day. Even the trees are apart of my life and I know that sounds crazy, but it's true. They've grown while I've grown.

I have so much history here, so many friends, so many people I know. Even the people I see every day, but don't know... I'm connected to them, and because of them, I am who I am.

I never want to leave here unless I'm ready... how can you just throw away everything you are made up of? I am made up of the birds and the buildings.

I am Edmonton.

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Well that is all for today. Just thought I'd write my feelings for once.

Make sure you study for the study group...

2007-02-19T18:49:00.002-07:00

I had a lovely study group with my friends today at a quante diner called the Blue Plate Diner. Erika works there. She is also lovely.
Two of our study mates, I won't mention names, enjoyed a wee cocktail or two... and got really giggly. We then headed back to the library and got nothing done in the time I stayed for.
So basically.... it was a lovely brunch with my friends.

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The temperature is rising.

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Tonight I get to go sledding with camp friends!

This excited me because I haven't seen half of them since camp.... whoa. That's a really long time.

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I hope you all remember to save your pennies... they add up so quickly, and you never know when you might need some cents....

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I'm being kicked out of my room it seems.

This happened to me a few months ago, and I was stuck behind a couch...

Now.... they are piling things behind the couch...

Hint hint much?

Caught In The Middle

2007-02-18T17:42:00.000-07:00

What happened to the days of Sesame Street?

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I have a piercing infection. And it's not even an exciting piercing to begin with.

But nonetheless, I love it a lot. I reminds me of Lilo! :D And our adventures in Cranbrook.

R.I.P. Brook.

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[Stuck in the middle with you]

I have a crush that won't go awaaaaaaay! :) Yay for little girl crushes though.

They are far more exciting than the complicated ways of "mature" dating, wouldn't you agree? Things get complicated, feelings are touchy, and that annoying thing called..... commitment. Yea.

Seems to me that a lot of people think you need to commit as soon as you begin "courting". No. I don't believe so. Beginning a relationship is much different than having a friendship, and you need to give it time to develop. It might work out, or it might not!!

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I was having coffee the other day with Alyssa.... we saw a tank.

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I forgot to get my slurpeeeeee!!

: (

Next week.

Me Against The World

2007-02-17T18:38:00.000-07:00

Michael Harbin... I miss you.

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I was insulted today by someone very close to me.

I was told that I will fail at life, that I know absolutely nothing, and that I should get out of their life asap.

These aren't exact words.... but that's how it came across.

And unfortunately.... I can't help but wonder exactly where my life is going, and if I will indeed.... fail.

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The Blazing Violets killed last night! For real, they are the sweetest band of all time!

And the lady-wear was oh so attractive : )

Ugh... so good.

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No cheese in the house.

What to do? What to do.

Oh dear.

Black Licorice Medley For You

2007-02-16T14:54:00.000-07:00

I have a friend called Fred.
He has exquisite taste in music.

[Idols of Exile]

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I wish the summer would be here.... now! : )
The sun could at least shine so I could look up in the sky and pretend.
Picture taking seems more like a chore then an activity when the sun doesn't shine.
I really would like the sun to shine.

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This evening I am attending a Blazing Violets show. If you haven't yet heard or heard of this awesome local band, I suggest you all get your acts together and visit their myspace.
www.myspace.com/blazingviolets
And come along tonight!!

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Anticipated..... a nice Sunday Slurpee.
I think I will treat myself to one after church this weekend. : )
Sun or not.
The Slurpee will be mine. And muchly enjoyed.

A Foot of Decency

2007-02-15T15:20:00.000-07:00

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Bauhaus Characteristics In Graphic Design

- geometric, functional & modern

- order, asymmetry

- rectangular grid structure

- circles, squares, rectangles, triangles, bars & rules to unify or separate elements vs. being used for decoration

- horizontal & verticals were dominant

- extreme contrast in type size & weight to achieve various degrees of emphasis

- type & pictures sized to the same column width

- typography without capitals - Sans Serif

- introduction of flush left - rag right typography

- copy rotated 90 degrees

- only structurally essential components used

- elementary forms & the use of black plus one bright hue

- colour tints emphasis key words

- open composition on an implied grid system of sizes for type, rules, and pictorial images brought unity to the design

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People on the bus are psychotic. For example, this old woman who had a cain and wanted to get off the bus first. She yelled at everyone to wait. I know she had a cain, but doesn't that seem a tad bit rude?

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I drew a teapot today.
It resembled a pig smoking a pipe....

I think I should keep practicing.

A Poem on The Underground Wall

2007-02-14T14:10:00.000-07:00

[ma baby loves me, I'm so happy. Happy makes me a modern girl...]